Sustainable Prospects – Tiredness
Since the Face-to-Face event in Amsterdam and my subsequent post about the mask that I wear, I have been feeling under the weather. I have been ill and constantly tired.
I have had several courses of antibiotics and still am exhausted despite having a lot of sleep. This could just be a coincidence, but I do believe that it is all part of the process I am going through as part of my current body of work and my acceptance of my mask.
My body has gone through a range of emotions since I realised what the motivation has been for my work. I have experienced traumatism, relief, sadness, and release. I think the main reason for my tiredness is the enormous effort involved in keeping up appearances for years to keep others happy and be who they expect me to be. My body is now catching up with itself. The illnesses have forced me to rest and show vulnerability, needing help from others.
The process of progressing this project so far is helping me to show the world who I really am. I am still getting used to it, so expect a few hiccups along the way.